"I am not so sure that I like all this change..."
Not that I don't like these changes- but more, I don't like new situations that make me have to be a little different or go out of my "comfort zone". I found myself pretty overwhelmed by all the changes that have happened. I wanted things to go back to what they were and to what felt comfortable and "easy" in my mind. I wanted to be able to "fall" back into the comfort of my previous life and just let life..be.
But then I started thinking about all that has changed in just the past year for me and the person I have become. I thought of my concerns last year when I started another new year of school. I thought about the exciting nerves that came from being in a new area with a new ward. I remember having hopes and dreams that I didn't think would EVER happen to me. I remember longing to be "in love"...but being taught how to "love"...that then brought heartbreak... but then helped me gain a bit more understanding of what it means to love. I thought of the relationships and friendships I have made through these changes in class, wards, states, activities I had participated in and new things I had become involved in. I remember failing. I remember being able to stand back up, and learn something new. I thought about the things I had hoped would someday happen to me and was surprised when they actually did.
Then....
I was reminded how aware the Lord was of me. I was reminded how well he knew me!
Change is something that many people are not comfortable with- including myself. Yet if we take the time to look at change in a different way- we find that change is one of the only ways that we can grow and become better people. Whether we see change as a good thing or as a trial- one way or another, we are CHANGED.
President Monson talked about change in regards to trials in his talk from October 2013 titles "I will not fail thee, nor forsake thee" where he said,
"The difficulties which come to us present us with the real test of our ability to endure. A fundamental question remains to be answered by each of us: Shall I falter, or shall I finish?... Whenever we are inclined to feel burdened down with the blows of life, let us remember that others have passed the same way,have endured and then have overcome...
Our Heavenly Father, who gives us so much to delight in, also knows that we learn and grow and become stronger as we face and survive the trials through which we must pass. We know that there are times when we will experience heartbreaking sorrow, when we will grieve and when we may be tested to our limits.
However, such difficulties allow us to CHANGE for the BETTER, to rebuild our lives int eh way our Heavenly Father teaches us, and to become something different from what we were- better than we were, more understanding than we were, more empathetic than we were, with stronger testimonies than we had before. "
I know things are different and that it's going to take some time for me to understand and get used to these new changes but when I think about these beautiful words from our Prophet and when I think about what the Lord has done for me...
I LOVE CHANGE.
I'm excited to see the new things that are going to happen to me. I'm excited to see what things the Lord has in store for me. I'm excited to see how I grow emotionally, physically, socially and most importantly spiritually. This is an exciting time of life for ALL OF US! Let us remember to be grateful to be where we are and remember who is aware of us.
